
When the results of your actions and hard work are as uncertain as it is when writing self-doubt is a certainty.
Doubting your skills and value as a writer is something EVERYBODY will go through at some point.
The writing world is scary.
It’s uncertain and that’s terrifying for me.
Not knowing how your audience will respond to what you put out there can be an agonizing thing to fret about.
The writing journey can be compared to riding a rollercoaster blindfolded and backward.
You have no idea what the hell is going on.
You’ll be up at one moment then you’ll hit your lowest low and there is no rhyme or reason.
The worst part is you are blind, you have no idea if you’ll ever make anything of yourself, and you don’t know how long this ride is.
However, the worst part is also why you’re on the rollercoaster.
You’re on the rollercoaster backward and blindfolded of your own free will.
It’s empowering to know you have put yourself in a difficult situation and are determined to see it through.
To be comfortable in yourself you need to. . .
Understand the Roots of Self-Doubt
Self-doubt is a result of various factors interplaying.
Once you understand each you can learn to point them out.
Acknowledging these reasons makes the feelings of self-doubt less spiky.
Fear of Failure and Perfectionism
If you are new to writing it’s extremely difficult to not be terrified of completing your first few pieces.
This is because you KNOW you don’t know enough to create a masterpiece but you can’t help but feel inadequate because when you release your writing you WILL fail.
That’s terrifying.
The brain deals with this fear by creating a mindset that delays this failure.
Meticulously going over your writing for ‘improvements’ and never being ready to finish it is just a distraction you do to yourself so you can delay the fear of failure.
Failure is normal.
It’s even encouraged.
If you don’t fail with your writing you don’t know what you don’t know.
The more you fail the more you understand what you don’t understand.
Which makes you a better writer.
You CAN’T become a better writer by passing with flying colors.
You NEED to write terrible stories.
Failure is REQUIRED.
Extrinsic Vs Intrinsic Motivation
When we understand motivation there are two ways you can be motivated.
Externally sourced motivation.
and
Internally sourced motivation.
Externally sourced motivation is stuff like what your parents will think about you, what the numbers say, and how people respond to your writing.
Externally sourced motivation is interchangeable with external validation.
They’re the same thing.
Intrinsic motivation however is stuff like the way you feel about your novel, how fulfilled finishing projects feels, and the pride you have in your work.
These two motivators are VERY different.
Often when you find yourself in the depths of self-doubt you are focused on external validation.
You are focused on how your writing will be received.
The thing about external validation is you have 0 control over it.
None.
You can’t control how people think (well at least I can’t and if you can you should be studied).
Intrinsic motivation, how you feel, IS under your control.
You CAN control whether you feel proud of yourself or not.
Great Stoic leaders of old know this fundamentally.
It is not in our control to have everything turn out exactly as we want, but it is in our control to control how we respond to what happens.
Epictetus
You NEED to be concerned with what is in your control.
What you can control is how you feel.
Focus on intrinsic motivation rather than external validation.
Imposter Syndrome
Imposter syndrome is when you constantly feel your success is not deserved or has been legitimately achieved, you feel like you’ve been given success by accident, by the Gods.
This persistent feeling of not being good enough is sure to sprout self-doubt in your writing.
In the writing world, imposter syndrome is where you are complemented on your work and don’t feel you deserve the credit, it’s where you are embarrassed to even share your work because who are you to write?
Imposter syndrome is common, especially among successful writers.
Neil Gaiman, a legendary writer, and creator of epic stories such as Coraline and The Sandman Comics struggles with imposter syndrome.
He CONSTANTLY feels despite his success he is one step away from being found out as a fraud.
It’s common and normal.
However, it’s not helpful.
The best way I have found to combat imposter syndrome is regular journaling.
Being able to go back over my past journal entries I can see just how much work I have put into my writing and can take pride in it.
Try it out.
In Conclusion. . .
There are so many reasons why you are self-doubting your writing that it’s completely normal.
I hope however our discussion of;
- Fear of Failure
- Perfectionism
- Extrinsic vs Intrinsic Motivation
- Imposter Syndrome
has helped you in some way and hopefully can deal with your self-doubt.
You’re awesome! Keep writing, the world is better off for it.
Thanks for reading 🙂
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